Tuesday, June 22, 2010



The name means, "He laughs". God told Abraham, an old man at the time, that he and his barren wife Sarah would have a son. Sarah laughed. Many years later, when Sarah was 90 years old, God fulfilled His promise. And God laughed! Abraham and Sarah named their son Isaac, because "He laughs". I felt just that way when I found out we would have our 5th baby. God was laughing at my inability to fully grasp His power, and I laughed with Him!

***Reposted and edited from last year***
Three years ago, at precisely 1:11pm I gave birth to this unexpected miracle. He is the personification of God's healing balm in our lives, the means by which God gave us back the years that infertility stole from us.

Todd and I struggled to have four children. For fourteen years we fought a disease known as polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS), a hormone imbalance that prevents ovulation. My PCOS got worse over the years and after our fourth child was born we knew that we were done. There would be no more fertility treatments. No more children. And then one day I started feeling pregnant. We simply could not believe that it could happen. Todd even told me that he thought I must just be imagining it. But a home pregnancy test proved him wrong!

Through all the years of infertility I had hoped and dreamed that one day, somehow, we would get pregnant without assistance, you know, the old fashioned way. But the reality was that chances were slim. And that's when God stepped in. I can't even begin to explain how deeply infertility hurt me, nor how wonderfully God used this baby to soothe those wounds, and to heal the part of me that felt horribly, helplessly broken.

What a joy and a pleasure it has been to be Izaak's mommie.

Happy Birthday Baby Boy!